Confusion … chaos … no structure … no clear path …
Recently I feel very confused. Things that should make sense don”t seem to be logic building blocks any longer. I am confused by my thoughts, confused by my feelings and I feel like I can not trust myself at the moment. Even though I am not sitting in the dark and there is a strong light, it does not seem to show me the path I was hoping for. The light is bouncing in every direction and does not reveal a clear path. I feel so many strings pulling in so many different directions and I seem to wander a few steps in every direction and therefore not getting anywhere. Sometimes it is easier to be in the dark and just start walking instead of trying to reasoning every step out in the light. I wish I would have the courage to follow my heart and be able to mute my doubts for a moment. It should be simple…. One step after the other with the goal in front of us, but often it is not only one priority we try to follow. Trying to please to many people with the result to lose ourselves in the process. Like the light is bouncing off of erratic shapes and forms in this picture instead of showing a straight line and illuminating a path to follow. In the end it is much like with this mess of aluminium foil in the image. I am responsible for the way it looks now, since I was the one destroying it’s clear and straight structure. But now I am at a point where I don’t quite know the way back, nor do I know if I want to get back.